One day your life will change.
You won’t be so cold. You’re going to laugh until you cry and laugh until you can’t laugh anymore…but then you do.
You’re going to feel again. You’re going to feel everything all at once.
You’ll look back on your life and not feel so sad.
You won’t feel embarrassed.
You’re biggest worry will be what’s for dinner and not will “you be alive when I get home?”
You’re going to wake up and not feel like you’re gasping for air every second of the day.
You won’t feel so scared anymore.
You won’t wake up screaming with anxiety.
You won’t roll over and have the urge to check for a pulse.
You won’t have to wonder, you’ll just know.
You won’t wake up at 2 am and see if their chest is moving.
You won’t have to make excuses. Period.
You will be selfish in the best humanly way possible and take care of yourself for once in your goddamned life and answer to no one.
You will feel normal again.
You’ll remember what it’s like to feel whole again.
You won’t feel stupid and betrayed. Instead you’ll feel empowered and inspired to be the best version of you.
You’ll love the person you are and take pride in that.
You’ll wake up.