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Meet the artist: Conner Cherland

Local to Santa Barbara, CA Conner Cherland is a new artist on the rise with a fast growing following on social media. His newest EP dropped September 2018, which is as he would say a “fair reflection of his internal life”. The Choices of John Still is more than just an album it is a story within six catchy songs.

You wouldn’t know it by listening to his music but Conner has only been playing guitar for about five years. He started out with a 40 song goal and ended with over 100.

The Choices of John Still is an album you can blast in your apartment to sing along to or along for a car ride.

38859519_2052084328439855_4081294090363207680_nNow who is Cherland?

Q: First song that you wrote?
 – “Laura’s Song” I was probably 20 or 21 years old, and it was about a girl I dated about 3 years earlier.
Q: What is the story behind John Still? 
 – John Still is a man who can see into the future. When he realizes the woman he loves will never marry him, he creates a potion to make her fall in love with him. As that potion wears off of his wife, we meet him in the title track. You’ll get to learn about him, his daughter, and his daughter’s love throughout the album.
Q: What song do you enjoy playing the most live?
 – Right now I’d have to say Watching From A Distance by David Ramirez
Q: Favorite venue you have played? 
 – I really liked the Millennium Biltmore Hotel. I got to play on a stage in one of the ballrooms.
Q: Where is your dream venue you would like to play?
 – The rooftop of Capital Records
Q: What is the first show you went to see?
 – Probably something at the Antelope Valley Fair as a kid…Journey? Might have been Journey.
Q: Song currently paused on your spotify or iphone?
 – If It Means A Lot To You – A Day To Remember (getting that moody vibe going)
Q: What can your fans expect from you? What projects do you have lined up?
 – They can expect this new album! After that, the Toad Boy EP probably, or a B-Sides EP. TBD,EP.
Q: What inspired you to make music?
 – I’ve always liked talking about my feelings. As I grow up I’m realizing that lots of people don’t want to talk about that sort of stuff…but you can make it way more palatable by putting it into a song for them.
Q: What is the process of creating a song for you?  
 – I try to stash away little phrases that sound real or true to me. If you catch me texting myself, chances are, that’s what it’s about. My songs usually start off with an idea, and then I let that idea roll around my head, or exist in a list until I can find a melody to suit it.
Q: What are/is the main theme behind your songs?
 – This new album deals with love and control for the most part. Even though it’s a concept album about this guy John, it’s also a fair reflection of my internal life.
Q: Aside from music, what are your other hobbies? 
 – I like interesting and meticulous tasks. Things like riding my bike, whittling, playing with my Chinese yo-yo recently (it’s called a diablo). I’m also a fan of writing letters to people.
Q: Do you have a dream guitar? Are you brand loyal or did you pick them based on appearances or just went by cost?
 – If I had infinite money, I’d be buying a few Gibson electric hollow bodies. I think they’re incredible.
Q: Where can people find your music?
 – connercherland.com , or wherever you listen to music. Just spell my last name “Cher” like the singer, and “Land” like the ground and you’ll find me.
Q: Are their any artists that inspire you? What artists/bands would you say you compare to? 
 – Plenty. Shakey Graves, Coheed and Cambria, Hozier, Noah Gundersen, Phil Collins, Chance The Rapper, Eminem, LIGHTS.
 – I get compared to Hozier, Ed Sheeran, Shakey Graves, and occasionally Jeff Buckley (which I have never understood).
Q: Where do you find your inspiration to write your songs?
 – I think people accidentally write my songs for me all the time. Stories, other songs especially, my family history.
Q: Anything else you would like to add about who you are as an artist?
 – I’m very concerned with increasing people’s ability to think and feel. I try to live my life to help others figure out what they want, if it’s worth the cost, and working toward it. Hope the songs help 🙂

You can check out his upcoming shows here and his music here! ConnerFinals-202

Go ahead and brush ya shoulders off..

The other day someone who I have not seen in forever made a comment that has stuck with me.
Paraphrasing but:
“I’m so glad you got out of that. I always felt like it brought you down when you’re a cool girl all on your own.”

You don’t think about things like that until someone points it out to you.

Year 24 I feel like has been a year of growth. I’m still working on myself. It’s going to take time but progress has been made for sure. I still have a couple months until I turn 25 (wait what…I feel like I just had a birthday…) but I feel like I aged more this year than any other fucking year of my life.

One adjustment is the whole being “alone” thing.

Why are we as humans so scared about being alone? At the end of the day you have yourself. Surprise surprise right? Only you can be responsible for you. You have to remember your self worth. Yes, have your breakdown nights where you drink too much and get emotional. Do that shit in moderation though because the next morning you wake up thinking “bitch, get a hold of yourself because you are awesome.”

Also… IT’S. OKAY. TO. CALL. YOURSELF. BITCH. it’s not always in a mean way. I do it all the time when I have to have a talk with myself.

Sometimes you need to have a talk with yourself. It’s not crazy believe me. You have to be your own cheerleader or that dude at games that pumps up the crowds and gets the people going.
Physical health is important but mental health is possibly even more. For real though. Lately, I have felt hypocritical if I’m honest. So this is a letter to whomever needs it as well as to myself.
You can get so down and so anxious that the only thing you want to do is stay in bed and binge watch Gilmore Girls or The Office until you pass out. As Lorelai Gilmore says in her most perfect way

“Get back in your pajamas, go to bed, eat nothing but gallons of ice cream and tons of pizza. Don’t take a shower or shave your legs or put on any kind of makeup at all. And just sit in the dark and watch a really sad movie and have a good long cry and just wallow. You need to wallow.”

Yas freaking queen. *insert those hallelujah emoji hands*

Once that’s done though, be the boss bitch you are and pick yourself back up. It’s okay to not be okay. It makes you human. If you didn’t have low moments I’d be a little worried about you.

For me personally, whenever I am stressed out or anxious I become the worst workaholic EVER. I will keep myself as busy as possible even if that means working insane hours to avoid having to just sit and be with myself. What’s that saying I hear the younger generations say? “Bish what?” Because legit bish what?? No. Like Steve Carell yelling no over and over. Just no. Because all that is going to do (and I say this from experience) is make you crash and burn one day and you’re going to look like an exhausted mess that starts crying and not realizing it because you’re so damned tired. (waves to herself as she was working a show in October…ha ha)

Basically ladies and gents…again it is okay to not be okay. Just don’t lose yourself in the process. Water yourself like you would a plant (also stay hydrated because that a legit issue too…I feel you on that). You’re going to grow daily. It’s okay if you’re not in the same place you were a month ago…shit even a day ago. So much can change in a day.

That’s all. I’ve gotten better about being more open about things. (Y’all seem to like it too so win?)

Okay, go be awesome.

Love, H

“Boss up and change your life.” – Lizzo

 

 

2018

I make the joke that 2018 was basically two years in one for me.

Because looking back on January 1, 2018 and yesterday (New Years Eve 2018) I don’t feel like the same person.

Everything in my life changed this year. Literally everything I was used to.

Last New Years I had bronchitis. I was extremely sick after wandering D.C. with a cold in 30-40° weather for two days. To me that should have been a sign that 2018 was going to be a shit show haha.

January, I gained a promotion in my job. (Yay!)

February, I found out I needed to have a lumpectomy for breast tumor Norma.

March, I had said surgery.

April 1st…was one of the worst days ever and the days following. Which led to us saying goodbye to one of our dogs.

May, I graduated from college and turned 24 (yay!) on the same day but was crying during my college graduation ceremony because my at the time boyfriend didn’t show up.

The end of May and June were both a blur for me personally. A lot of personal things changed and set the path for an even bigger change.

July, I ended a 6 year chapter of my life and basically started over.

From January to July I cried a lot. I was extremely depressed and I honestly didn’t realize how depressed I was until I ended everything. I had lost weight due to stress and basically chain smoking. I was drinking very heavily after I broke things off for about a month or almost two. I went out a lot more than before because I could. I felt numb. Like I didn’t really know what to do because it was like a huge weight was gone.

Then it was like a light switch.

I started laughing more. I started doing better at both jobs. I was able to concentrate more on me.

I started to feel happy again. My nightmares started to go away (that I had been having for about eight months) and I wasn’t waking up in the middle of the night panicked. Friends and family stated they saw a difference in my demeanor and just saw how happy I was overall.

I became more open to letting people in again. My coworkers and friends talked me into dating again because I was scared to. At first I was worried about what people would think. “Oh my gosh she moved on so fast!” “Oh wow it’s only been a couple months.” “She obviously didn’t love ______” the list went on in my head. Then those around me told me that the people who matter know everything and won’t judge me.

So I said fuck it. The support was overwhelming and it was actually wonderful.

When I say 2018 felt like two years it’s because one felt very dark and very lonely and the other one was a breath of fresh air and full of happiness and love. As corny as fuck as that sounds but literally I can’t think of anything bad that has happened since July for me. I even quit smoking.

If 2018 taught me anything it’s that sometimes you have to do what scares you to do what’s best for you. There is no rule book. You have to do it on your own.

Here’s to 2019. If it’s anything like my last couple months then bring it on.

One day.

One day your life will change.

One day.

You won’t be so cold. You’re going to laugh until you cry and laugh until you can’t laugh anymore…but then you do.

You’re going to feel again. You’re going to feel everything all at once.

You’ll look back on your life and not feel so sad.

One day.

You won’t feel embarrassed.

You’re biggest worry will be what’s for dinner and not will “you be alive when I get home?”

You’re going to wake up and not feel like you’re gasping for air every second of the day.

One day.

You won’t feel so scared anymore.

You won’t wake up screaming with anxiety.

You won’t roll over and have the urge to check for a pulse.

One day.

You won’t have to wonder, you’ll just know.

You won’t wake up at 2 am and see if their chest is moving.

You won’t have to make excuses. Period.

One day.

You will be selfish in the best humanly way possible and take care of yourself for once in your goddamned life and answer to no one.

You will feel normal again.

You’ll remember what it’s like to feel whole again.

One day.

You won’t feel stupid and betrayed. Instead you’ll feel empowered and inspired to be the best version of you.

You’ll love the person you are and take pride in that.

You’ll wake up.

One day.

One day.

Today.